SIBEH DULAN.

SUPER BAD DAY LAH.

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Really frustrated today at Rag. I just think there are people around who likes to push saikang to people. Yesterday after hearing Tricia saying, 'Omg why am I wasting my time doing this? I should just ask some other people to do this lah!'.

I was quite pissed off. So its okay for 'other people' (a.k.a. me and the others) to waste their time helping you do that?

And today, Camillus is such a bitch. He invited me and Eugenia to go downstairs to marche the cottage. When we were there, he realized that the starch for marche-ing had dried up, and he said, 'Okay Hui Ting do the starch. Since she's the only one who knows how to do it.'

Then after I went upstairs to collect cold water, went downstairs again to boil the water to prepare for the starch, he sashay-ed over, peered into my cup, and said, 'Not enough starch powder. You need to add more.'

And then I was like, WTF? I asked him, 'So you know how to make starch right?'

He pretended that he didn't listened to what I said and turned around to talk to Eugenia. Freaking pissed off. He doesn't want to do the sai kang thats why he push me to do the starch. He just fold his arms, sit there kiaoka and wait for me to DELIVER the starch. EVEN BETTER, he take my starch and went to marche. Then I have nothing to do.

Fucking imba asshole.

I'm also quite sian-ed of Edmund's outbursts. I mean, he doesn't even give his friends any respect. Why do I even have to give a shit about him? I think I really sacrificed a lot of things for him already. But I don't think he's worth it.

Rag is like, a breeding ground of superficial people. Everyone is bitching about each other, but on the surface, they could still treat each other so politely and joke around. I abhor this kind of pretense. I feel like bitching about Cam and whoever to somebody to vent my frustration.

But what stopped me was when I think of Xinying. Like, what will she do if she's in my situation. I think the thought of her really made me suppress my anger and control my actions. Cos I think that she wouldn't bitch around and she will just quietly do her things and just get on with Rag, I followed suit. Just emo in one corner and ignore everyone. Whats the point of trying to be nice when I will cut off ties with these superficial people in the future?

SBDL.